My eyes are red and my temper beyond control. I could kill anyone who dares smile at me and feel no remorse whatsoever. After reading so hard, I wrote the first of my final year exams today. “You may now begin”, was all I needed my to hear from the invigilator as I turned the question paper. What happened thereafter, I can only say amidst tears. Head blank and bladder instantly filled with urine, nothing in the question paper looked familiar…that’s an exaggeration. I mean, I didn’t know where to start! What’s more? I got all dizzy as I haven’t had a meal since yesterday (this is because I was to engrossed in reading). Then the all familiar, terrible ulcer decided to knock. I couldn’t bear it. Last year, I simply walked out of the examination hall and I was about doing same when I remembered how hard I struggled to get my school fees. I just can’t afford to give UNIBEN that amount again. Tears clouded my eyes and I couldn’t fight it so I gave in. The ulcer just added to my pain and I was light headed. I could tear my question paper and yell “TO HELL WITH SCHOOL”, that moment. I simply kept telling myself to not give up. What would my kids say if they knew mummy dropped out of school? *sigh*. I’m at work now, no more tears, I’ll just hope that the little nonsense I wrote won’t give me an extra year in this stressful institution. Since my parents aren’t here to punish me, I’ll punish myself.. ‘NO FOOD FOR ME TODAY’! *side talk*, I’m not even hungry.
Yours in Tears